Sometimes. ..

It's difficult to know if something is a blessing or a curse..

New Year! New phone!

So, I'm writing this post - after a long hiatus - on my new Galaxy Note II. Perfect inspiration to get me motivated again. And Boyo I need motivating. 2012 had some rough points to it and I'm hoping 2013 will be a little easier. At least in the sad parts and ways. It should be good - I've always faired better in and around things that are routinely seen as "bad luck".  So this should be MY year!  Ha!
So Here's some plan ideas...  to further my career, I think I'll pursue learning more in the IT world. Of course my pipe dream would be video game minutiae design. ...  I'll think I'll design my pipe first. .! 

Also,  even though it's been such a rocky road and one I'm sure people are tired of being aware of - Kirk and I are still trying to start that family. At 35 & 36 the clock is something I am aware of. Maybe this will be our year...

I vow to have made my first hard cheese by December 2013. And have milked my precious goat Mai.

And Kirk is starting his own business. Scary. But but so worthwhile.

So this year has much to live up to and accomplish. .. 
onward and upwards.
No fear.

Hippies didn't die...

Former Obama Czar Launches American ‘Arab Spring’ Revolt – Patriot Update

An Egypt-styled “Arab Spring,” which has put radicals in charge of the government, will be launched in the United States this spring with a war on “corporate power, Wall Street greed and the political corruption of the 1 percent,” according to the group headed by former Obama green aide Van Jones.

“They’re really not going to like the 99 percent Spring,” said Rebuild the Dream in an organizing email Friday.

Comparing the collection of protests last year that are symbolized by the 99 percent campaign and Occupy movement, to those of Gandhi and Martin Luther King Jr., the group said that “we were all inspired by the protesters of the Arab Spring who stood up to totalitarian governments, and inspired the Occupy movement here in America.”

The plan for now is to hold protest training sessions around the nation next week. Over 900 are scheduled so far.

My Take:

Just great.  I wish these “do-gooder” minded. Base mentality idiots would get out of the way of us that are accurately informed, hard-working, true 99% American citizens.  Hippies didn’t die – they became yuppies.  These little punks need to take a long hard look at their parents instead of their blind advances against the mystical 1%.  Idiots…. 

Arkansas Shootin

Arkansas. Shooting at the outdoor public range today with my dad and my husband. Watching the men agonize over every shot fired - every tick of the gun - every nuance of the wind. There's a grandfather out here with his two grandsons - the older shooting a shotgun, the younger shooting a 22. When I shot mine I heard one boy say "look! The girl's going to shoot!" then I watched when I was done as he sauntered out to "check" my target. They sure seemed to like me after that. The grandfather told us the younger boy is autistic. Sure can't tell it as he responds well to the constant set of instructions and stimulus his grand father gives him as the beautiful country day draws on. Seeing as these boys are being taught VERY good safety lessons - constantly streaming from their grandfather (and us). Tell me again why guns should be banned. This seems WAY healthier than putting a video game controller in there hands, buying a war shooter like Call of Duty, and walking away as they learn "shooting" lessons from strangers online... Hmmmmm. Yeah. Makes ya think.

Our newest backyard find

Currently trying to identify this lovely rock that Kirk found in the watershed area of our backyard.  Lovely opaqueness.... 

World's End

World’s end. Yet a new begin.

The ocean crashes as my thoughts ascend.

Confusion flutters. Stops and ends.

Emotions take over.  Oh, not again.

Sitting beside my hope and friend

My day slowly darkens as the world sets in.

But all is not dark and all is not bad.

Good friends hold the release of a world gone mad.

                                    Kandice Martin Cox

                                    April 22, 1996

Nasrin

I wrote this poem back in 1994 after reading an article about a woman standing up for her rights in a Muslim country.  She was under constant threat of death and I wonder sometimes if she has survived.  I think with the current state of affairs, this is a good time to post this poem. I feel for all women living under such immense suppression of basic human rights.

Nasrin 

I heard a story from a dear friend that

Made my heart turn cold.

The events and sufferings that happened that day

Made my soul grow old. 

I heard about the beatings and stones

That she has had to live through.

I fear though that she too has grown cold

And her heart is choking and blue.

My wish is true for you my friend,

I want that your life be gay.

But the world has turned its cold shoulder to you,

And now is your time to be brave.

Just remember, dear friend of mine,

That your words still sit in my mind.

The trials and strife that you have been through

Will never be lost through time. 

Kandice Martin (Cox)

December 13, 1994

For Taslima Nasrin, my friend-unknown.